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When I was 23, I had an exceptionally difficult year.  If you want to know more about what happened, come talk to me… but suffice it to say I was in rough shape, mentally and emotionally.  I recently came across some writing (in the form of secret blog posts!) from that year, and it was so crazy to look back on some of the things I was thinking and feeling.  I learned a few things about enduring suffering from revisiting my younger self and wanted to share those things with all of you.

1. Feel your feelings — These blog posts are dripping with emotion, to a point that is almost embarrassing (one delicious phrase: “look me in the eye and see the despair in my soul.”).  I truly believe that if I didn’t have an outlet to express what I was feeling, those emotions would have exploded in much ...
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September is Suicide Awareness Month.

Death is a horrible topic. It shouldn’t exist to begin with. Even grieving death hurts deeply. But what happens when you want it, death? When the beauty within yourself turns ugly and all you know is the ashes of broken life?

Logically, we see suicide as the murder of oneself. It goes against common sense. But more than murder, on an emotional and physical level, it’s a soul’s cry of hopeless desperation.

Why would someone want to take their own life?

 The reasons are a million and one, but it comes down to this, the world is not as it should be right now. And encounters with that brokenness that has reached the depths of who we are and escaping the pain of that brokenness can be consuming.

Suicide is like a volcano; the very core and foundation holds the danger. When a volcano goes off, the effect is not only the ash and molte ...

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We all experience things differently and they can progress at different rates depending on several variables; our resiliency, our support system, ways we cope and a few more.  But they can usually progress this way, stress, anxiety, depression (each with 3 levels) and unfortunately these lead to suicide contemplation.

 

Stress-Low; these items are our daily routine stuff, getting up to go to work or school, chores we do around the house, things we have to do.

Stress-Medium; these items begin to get us upset and aggravated, bad day at work, traffic jam, a flat tire, running late for something these items can begin to weigh us down if the stay consistent.

Stress-High; over-loaded at work, past due bills, consequences are forming because of what has happened, these things are starting to take a toll on our daily activities.

 

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